I’m a huge fan of Tom Leykis, having listened to him since I was 17 when he was on the air on the former alternative talk station in Dallas on 105.3 FM which is now a shit-tier sports station called The Fan owned by CBS in a vain attempt to chase the new weighting for the Arbitron ratings analytics service used in the radio industry.
He has made such an impact on me in the last week since his return just because I had forgotten the tenets of his ideology, which he calls Leykis 101. Why I forgot these tenets is rather funny, but I’m glad he’s back all the same, because I had originally believed that by being a nice guy and being a sensitive person, I would be able to find someone to spend time with.
I then think back to the time that I got engaged to my ex-fiancee and remember exactly why I need Leykis 101: Because you can still be a nice guy, but you have to be careful that it isn’t misconstrued for weakness or lack of assertiveness. I had spent the last week listening to Leykis and I really feel rejuvenated and filled with a new hope.
To give you an idea of who I am, I’m 26 years old, Latino with a disability that isn’t on any sort of federal support trying to make a career of blogging professionally while trying to shake off a family that is rather unappreciative of my chosen profession. As I live with Cerebral Palsy, I’m easily mistaken for a stupid person that needs help while out in public and it doesn’t help that I’m shorter than average, which makes it easier for the typical fuckstick to try and take advantage of me. Protip: The majority of people in positions of power will fuck over people with disabilities and the Americans with Disabilities act doesn’t help for shit.
Now how does Tom Leykis help me in this situation? His advice to men of all walks of life is based on the idea that men are inherently giving up freedom and opportunity by allowing anyone to tie them down, by either having a girlfriend or a family to take care of as these things can cost a man his dreams and ambitions. Unfortunately for any women that may read this, he’s right. I’ve given up way too much personally in terms of money and credit in an attempt to help my family try to get through the current prolonged recession.
I’m in a position to travel and take pictures of pretty girls and I’m not about to waste time by tying myself down to one girl, unless she meets the following appearance criteria:
Ladies, if you don't look like this, I'm not interested
Tom Leykis is the motivational help that I needed to help me get through my lack of drive to do better for myself. Others had Tony Robbins and all that other self-help shit, I take advice from a guy that has the balls to try and start his own live netcast instead of relying on terrestrial radio. I look up to people like Tom more than I do typical celebrities, simply because the guy makes his living doing a simple job and does it well.
I really thought I needed to give up on blogging and go back to getting a shit retail job and deal with all the bullshit that came with that. The more I look at how fucked up retail is getting, the less I want to ever consider such a job. I wish I could feel bad for those that do work retail, but you guys are the new ditch diggers and are just as disposable. I don’t have time and money to waste on stupid bullshit uniforms and rules anymore, I have actual responsibilities that don’t involve selling stupid shit to people that don’t need it.
As for the women, If you’re easygoing and cool about things, I want to talk to you and hangout. Not too interested in relationships anymore, but my ideal would be a cross between friends with benefits and a best friend that’s into music, video games, anime and manga that looks like this:
This woman represents my 'ideal woman' – tall, hot and talented at what she does.
Now, I’m not expecting to find my ideal anytime soon, and that’s fine. In the meantime, I’m having way too much fun writing about Japanese comics, cartoons and cellphones. Fuck doing anything else, I am living my dream. I used to think that I needed a relationship with the woman of my dreams to be a complete person and I spent years pining and thinking about her, hoping that she would just magically fall in my lap.
No, it doesn’t work that way at all. Every opportunity I’ve ever had came as a result of my dogged persistence to go after what I wanted and chasing it until I reached the goal I wanted. How I fell into the trap of dreaming and hoping for my dream girl, I don’t know, especially since dreaming about the idea of my ‘dream girl’ made me depressed for three years. Fuck that, I’m tired of being depressed and being fooled into believing that such a thing as true love exists, especially as the core relationships that I’ve been exposed to were broken, vindictive messes full of passive aggressiveness and hatred, including the ones I’m exposed to now.
My goals now revolve around fixing my behaviors to better reflect my desires to become a better person and the stubborn person that I was born as growing into a more composed, but firm person. I let the world get to me and almost beat me into submission because I thought being a nice guy was the best way to get through life. Being nice got me nothing but bullshit and asshole bosses up until I started blogging in 2006.
In fact, my current job as a professional blogger has been the only job that I’ve held for longer than a year, with all of the jobs beforehand being shitty, menial retail sales jobs that were reliant on ass kissing and selling shit people didn’t want. The worst of those jobs being GameStop, where I had to keep jumping back and forth until I quit my last stint in 2009 in order to blog full-time and leads me to the present day.
I know there’s a lot more to life than blogging, but it has opened up so many amazing doors for me that I’ve been able to walk through. I can only work harder to get closer to my goals and see where the effort takes me. This year is going to be a hell of a ride.
